Starting over began as one of the hardest things I thought I would have to go through.  Initially I didn't know how I would get through it, but then one day I realized I had everything I needed within myself.  Once that reality hit, life began to happen for me, things got easier, life for me compared to the past 48 years was rainbows and unicorns.  

I look at life differently than before, I see my life and my future through a new set of lenses.  I am finally happily married, I have 2 stepchildren, my own children are grown, my grandson is amazing, I travel, I'm close to retirement, I'm working on my BS degree, I'm finally able to enjoy each day and everything it brings me.  

I was only able to do this by forgetting the past, forgetting the people who intentionally hurt me, taking control of my health, my attitude and the perspective in which I view things.  Don't get me wrong this didn't happen overnight for sure.  

I had to start thinking about the people or things that didn't bring positive into my life and decided that these people and these things only affected me because I ALLOWED them too. I stopped engaging with negativity, anything or anyone that didn't impact my day-to-day life was gone.  Man, what a difference that made.  I realized that some of the triggers in my life I was allowing in, once I stopped engaging, I began to finally feel peace.  Now I wake up excited about my day and what it will hold for me.